Sunday, November 28, 2010
There is however a common occurence that usually happens in the shows.
There is always ALWAYS a bad guy (or gal for that matter)!
You cannot hide from it. Just think back on all the dramas which you have watched. I'm right, right?
And how often do we detest and dislike that bad guy character. The ruthlessness. The incorrigibility. The disgusting nature. Admit it, we just hate it, hate them.
Yet, think back on your own lives. How many times have you been that bad character?
How many times have you played the bad role? How many times have you caused others to dislike or hate you due to your character, your actions?
Many times, it is easy to immediately spot the bad guy when we look at others. It's as easy as ABC. No doubts about it. Period. But to look at yourself in the mirror and give yourself a full body scan, well, that's really the hard part. Extremely tough.
I've been struggling a lot with this fact recently. This year especially. And this period. Somehow, I've uncovered a lot of my bad qualities. A lot of the behaviour that I cannot control has been let loose unexpectedly. This is really a journey of self discovery.
Two fellow interns of mine have recently commented on my self-confidence. I don't really know whether it is a good thing that I display lots of self-confidence. I always try not to show my weak side to others. Yet they do not know that within me, I am battling this monster. The monster which threatens to expose my negativities. To tell you the truth, it has been fighting back at me hard. Real hard! The monster brings along with it: Agressiveness, opinionatedness, argumentative, selfishness, competitiveness, anger, hatred, jealousy and probably a lot of other 'friends' (but enemies of mine) which I have yet to find out. Sometimes, I really hate these 'enemies' which are stuck on me. I really really do. But they are strong, and I lose control.
How can I get rid of these 'enemies'??
A life not reflected on is not worth living...
- Beautiful and Ugly
by snoopy_lim @ 11:43 PM
Saturday, November 20, 2010
Hi Dad,
Although you may never ever see this post, I still wanna wish you a very very very happy birthday! Dad, you are the BEST DAD, BEST PEEPS, BEST FATHER IN THE WHOLE WIDE WORLD! I really LOVE YOU for who you are! You rock Dad! You ROCK!
Whenever the world seems to come crashing down upon me, you are there to hold it up.
Whenever the world seems to be opposing me, you are beside me.
Whenever the world seems to hate me, you love me.
Peeps, although you are not the lovey-dovey-hugs-and-kisses kind of Dad, I know that you really love me deep down inside you.
You work so hard to put food on the table for us.
You scrimp and save on things for yourself just to give me the things I want.
You are such an amazing amazing Dad.
Through you, I have learnt patience. Through you, I have learnt endurance. Through you, I have learnt independence.
And Dad, you are the reason for who I am today.
I can never thank you enough Dad.
I love you Dad and I pray to God to always keep you safe and protected.
Happy Birthday! =)=)
A pic of my cute cute dad laughing while we were skyping (when I was in the US)
- Happy Birthday Dad!
by snoopy_lim @ 11:59 PM
Tuesday, November 9, 2010
My intern friends were so shocked at my speed for checking for information on
my phone. Yesterday at Tiong Bahru Market, I mentioned that touting is illegal when a drinks stall auntie kept coming to our table to ask us to buy drinks. My friend then said that touting is illegal only when the stall owners 'ba zhan' (hog) the table and allow customers to sit at those tables when they order from their stalls. I was somewhat unconvinced, and decided to check the meaning of touting on my phone. It is simply to solicit business, and does not include the definition of hogging tables. This means that as long as anyone touts in a hawker centre, it is illegal. (Look at just how stubborn and aggressive I was in proving my point, Horrible me)
Just a few days ago, I was pondering over how this internship has been beneficial to me. What have I learnt? About myself, about chem stuff, about human relations, etc. I agreed with myself that although I did learn some stuff about 'humanships' (human + relations
hips, I've recently been very obsessed with combining two words), I don't think I gained much knowledge on the Chem side. There was this envy in me when I see some of the other interns writing reports to their supervisors regarding their projects. And then today, just when I was rather free, my supervisor came to me and tasked me with a rather heavy assignment. To come up with a manuscipt (in her words), something like a journal article. The data and all are already up, all that needs to be done is the typing and organisation.
What a shock. I'm kinda jittery now. My sup sat down with me today explaining to me about charts and graphs and standard deviation and the x variables and the y variables, etc. in chinese. I think I had a very obvious display of question marks all over my face that she just randomly and suddenly laughed out loud right in front of me.
Thanks sup. Oh wells, please wish me luck in writing the paper which apparently will not be accepted by any journals due to the lack of novelty (in her words).
- Be careful what you wish for
by snoopy_lim @ 8:57 PM