Sunday, November 28, 2010
There is however a common occurence that usually happens in the shows.
There is always ALWAYS a bad guy (or gal for that matter)!
You cannot hide from it. Just think back on all the dramas which you have watched. I'm right, right?
And how often do we detest and dislike that bad guy character. The ruthlessness. The incorrigibility. The disgusting nature. Admit it, we just hate it, hate them.
Yet, think back on your own lives. How many times have you been that bad character?
How many times have you played the bad role? How many times have you caused others to dislike or hate you due to your character, your actions?
Many times, it is easy to immediately spot the bad guy when we look at others. It's as easy as ABC. No doubts about it. Period. But to look at yourself in the mirror and give yourself a full body scan, well, that's really the hard part. Extremely tough.
I've been struggling a lot with this fact recently. This year especially. And this period. Somehow, I've uncovered a lot of my bad qualities. A lot of the behaviour that I cannot control has been let loose unexpectedly. This is really a journey of self discovery.
Two fellow interns of mine have recently commented on my self-confidence. I don't really know whether it is a good thing that I display lots of self-confidence. I always try not to show my weak side to others. Yet they do not know that within me, I am battling this monster. The monster which threatens to expose my negativities. To tell you the truth, it has been fighting back at me hard. Real hard! The monster brings along with it: Agressiveness, opinionatedness, argumentative, selfishness, competitiveness, anger, hatred, jealousy and probably a lot of other 'friends' (but enemies of mine) which I have yet to find out. Sometimes, I really hate these 'enemies' which are stuck on me. I really really do. But they are strong, and I lose control.
How can I get rid of these 'enemies'??
A life not reflected on is not worth living...
- Beautiful and Ugly
by snoopy_lim @ 11:43 PM