Tuesday, May 24, 2011
Indeed, how true this sentence it, and it has been swirling in my head for the past few days.
I was offered a job at Sime Darby as a management trainee. The pay is not that bad for a fresh grad, exciting job prospects, lots of things to learn and space for me to grow. In the meantime, I am also waiting for a response from the SPF. A 'dream' job that has been something I have been thinking about for the past 4 years, ever since I started uni, with the added influence of my dad, who's a retired policeman.
Both offers me completely different job scopes, yet both exciting and has a future. The risk here of course is that if I decide to wait for SPF, I might not get a job altogether, given that SPF might not offer me anything in the end (although I've gone through all five rounds, including the medical checkup). And then if I decide to give up SPF and just accept Sime Darby, I risk losing the opportunity of joining SPF ever again in future. According to a friend, they do blacklist you if you reject them, especially since I've gone through so many rounds, only to say NO when I'm one step away from getting in...
There are so many other factors to consider. And it has not been an easy 4-5 days for me. The struggles and the constant battles in my mind. The trying-to-hear-God-speak over the last few days. I've been getting varied responses from people I've approached. Ultimately, to me, it is where God wants me to go...
Yesterday afternoon, I actually set my mind on waiting for the SPF already.... But I received a call at 1+am (1.42am to be exact), advising me to just accept Sime Darby first. Haha, it's really amusing... Because I started thinking, is God trying to tell me something??
So yup, the constant battle with myself is intense and overwhelming. So I have put my mind on just accepting Sime Darby first. Called HR just now, and she was in a meeting. Waiting for her to call back.... Haha, I'm hoping she doesn't.... Then I have one more night to think about it.... (And one more day for SPF to contact me, which is highly unlikely!)
By the way, if you're thinking, why not call SPF to chase them, well, I have. They haven't received my medical yet.
So it's back to a waiting game from both sides.... God, please guide me....
- Dilemmas and Choices
by snoopy_lim @ 5:34 PM